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April 16th VT Lament

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 12:25:54 GMT

Here is a Lament that I wrote after I heard about the Virginia Tech Shooting. Sometimes the only way I can express what I feel is through lyrics. These are still rough but It's how I was feeling at the time. Be praying for the Virginia Tech families and for all those who were affected.

- Ky

April 16, 2007 VT LAMENT

Verse 1
The other day I heard about
How one life took another
I cried about the sheer amount
Of hatred toward each other

I asked myself why God would
Allow this thing to happen
I asked him then if he could
Help all of us who have fallen

Bridge 1
Our tears have tumbled from our eyes
Our hearts have crumbled for our demise
Now we need you God to intervene
Lord come now and do something

Chorus 1
When will you come?
And save us from this pain
When will you come?
Do we pray in vain?
For we need you now
To help us all forgive
We need you now
Lord come and help us live

Verse 2
Who then shall separate us
From the love of Christ
Will trouble, danger or nakedness?
Or any other vice?

For I am convinced that nothing will
Separate us from Christ’s love
Not death or life, not angels or demons
For everything he is above

Bridge 2
We ask you now to bring us life
We ask you come and heal our lives
We know that you are surely alive
For you are our God help us to forgive

Chorus 2
Lord now come
And save us from this pain
Lord now come
Our prayers are not in vain
For we know you will
Help us all forgive
We need your help now
So lord come help us live

Truth's Not True

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 19:18:15 GMT

There once was a time

When truth was true

But now everyone

Has their own truth

Truth is personal

In a world full of

“What do you thinks” and “Maybes”

The absolutes are gone

Even if there is a god

His name is up to you

You can stare a lie

Right in the face

And tell it’s not the truth

But it’s hard to know

When truth is truth

When everyone has their own

Truth’s not true

Should I Go or Should I Stay?

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 22:18:03 GMT

This is a question I've been asking myself lately. I haven't written anything in awhile. The main reason I haven't written anything in awhile is because I don't want to put forth the effort of writting something if no one is going to read. I feel like Xanga is history. What are your feelings (if there is anyone out there)? Should I continue posting or should I stop. If I get 10 comments I might consider continuing.

Constant Sin: A Lament

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 16:23:55 GMT

Constant sin

The trap I’m in

Un-forgiven in my mind

The way is dark

I feel no remorse

My sin is moving in

The way out seems barred

Barred by my own self serving heart

I feel as if God isn’t there

Like he is as distant as the sun

The sun is setting in my life

The warmth of love from God is gone

I feel only shame

My sin has bound me

I feel locked in

Constant sin

This web I’m in

I am stuck within this maze

My soul can’t seem to find its way out

I look up

Through the haze

I search for someone there to help

Cause I cannot help myself

But no one’s there

I’ve searched in vain

For some help to guide me out

And lead me from this shroud of doubt

I look down

And walk ahead

And find the bodies of the dead

Who never made it out again

I cry out

For God to save

My wretched soul that wallows in

This mud and dirt that is my sin

Will help come

Will God save me

From this maze of sin I’ve made

The only way out

Is through the gates my heart has made

I must break through

I realize now that only through

The Son can my sinful bonds be broken

God give me strength to rely on you

Only by you and your grace will

My soul be saved

God save me

I am yours!

Somethings and Nothings

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 21:19:28 GMT

You know how sometimes you want to say something so badly to someone but you just can't say it. Or the times when you know what you need to say but you can't bring yourself to say it. Or the times when you get told something you don't want to hear even though you knew that at one point someone was going to talk to you about the thing you didn't want to hear about. Or how about the times when you just don't know what to say. Or the times when sometimes saying something just won't cut it. Or the times when you just can't shut up even though you are the only one who is listening to what you are saying. Or what about the times when all you say is nothing and that is good enough. Or the times in your life when nothing is too much to listen to so all you listen to is simply something.

Life is too simple to listen all the time to nothing and to short to listen to something. So if in all this nothing you have gotten something then I am glad and if in all this nothing you got nothing then I am also glad for it is not what we get out of nothing it's what we get out of something.

(There's one to rival Paul's Sin Talk.)

Have a blessed day of somethings and nothings.

Ky

Once It Was The Blessing

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 14:52:09 GMT

Here's a great Poem I discovered I hope it encourages you all as it did me. - Ky

    Once it was the blessing,

    Now it is the Lord;

    Once it was the feeling,

    Now it is His Word;

    Once His gift I wanted,

    Now, the Giver own;

    Once I sought for healing,

    Now Himself alone.

    Once was painful trying,

    Now is perfect trust;

    Once a half salvation,

    Now the uttermost;

    Once was ceaseless holding,

    Now He holds me fast;

    Once was constant drifting,

    Now my anchor’s cast.

    Once was busy planning,

    Now is trustful prayer;

    Once was anxious caring,

    Now He has the care;

    Once was what I wanted,

    Now what Jesus says;

    Once was constant asking,

    Now is ceaseless praise.

    Once it was my working,

    His it hence shall be;

    Once I tried to use Him,

    Now He uses me;

    Once the power I wanted,

    Now the Mighty One;

    Once for self I labored,

    Now for Him alone.

    Once I hoped in Jesus,

    Now I know He’s mine;

    Once my lamps were dying,

    Now they brightly shine;

    Once for death I waited,

    Now His coming hail;

    And my hopes are anchored

    Safe within the veil.

    All in all forever,

    Only Christ I’ll sing;

    Everything is in Christ,

    And Christ is everything.

Mexico....

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 15:26:53 GMT

What a trip! Lives were changed and touched in a way I would have never dreamed. I was very proud of the youth and how they showed Christ's love to all the people down in Juarez.

My eyes were opened up to poverty and how even in the poorest place there can be so much love and happiness. By no means was everyone I saw happy but neither were they sad or depressed. They seemed content and happy with what little they had.

I wish that in America we were content with little. We are not in the very least content to have little. We must have everything we must fill our houses with every little "comfort" and waste our money that we could be using to help the needy of the world. Will this ever happen. I don't think it will until people go and experience third world life for themselves. I know that we say we are "blessed" in America with all that we have but I think we would be more blessed if we would give more than we receive and I think that people in Mexico in some ways are more blessed than we are here in America. They have community because every house isn't filled with TV's and Internet. We must in America, become less dependent on the TV and computer and become more dependent on real communication.

Just some random thoughts I've been thinking.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Wed, 31 May 2006 20:48:31 GMT

Well it's been a long while since I updated. I'm sorry. I've been without a connection. It's actually been kind of nice. I haven't been wasting a lot of time on this computer.

I hope everyone is having a great summer. I am! This summer I'll be working at my home Church Garnett in Tulsa! I'm really excited to do this again. The youth here are awesome and so are the adults. I really love the family here.

Tonight is our mission sendoff night where we are going to be praying for the youth high school and middle school that will be going on mission trips in the next two weeks.

I am leaving on Saturday June 3rd for Juarez Mexico and I am really excited!!! I've never been to Mexico before it should be an amazing experience!

The middle school is going to Bayou La Batre Alabama to do hurricane relief work.

I would really appreciate all your prayers. Remember there are three ways to impact people's lives on mission trips: Person, Purse, or Prayer.

You can either help support someone with money (purse), prayerfully help someone, or go yourself in person.

I hope you all have a great summer I'll keep you updated throughout the summer of what's going on in my world.

Love Ya'll,

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 14:47:02 GMT

Hey everybody!!! I'm done with school for the summer!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm Free!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so glad. I'll be praying that the rest of you get through alive also. To ya'll at Garnett I'll be seeing you soon!! Can't wait!!

I'll be updating randomly throughout the summer.

Love ya'll and God Bless,

Let This be Said of me...

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 01:10:42 GMT

Let It Be Said of Us
Words and Music by Steve Fry

Let it be said of us that the Lord was our passion,
that with gladness we bore ev’ry cross we were given;
That we fought the good fight, that we finished the course,
Knowing within us the pow’r of the risen Lord.

Let the cross be our glory and the Lord be our song
by mercy made holy, by the Spirit made strong.
Let the cross be our glory and the Lord be our song ‘til the likeness of Jesus

be through us made known.
Let the cross be our glory and the Lord be our song.

Let it be said of us we were marked by forgiveness,
we were known by our love and delighted in meekness;
We were ruled by His peace heeding unity’s call,
joined as one body that Christ would be seen by all.

Let the cross be our glory and the Lord be our song,
by mercy made holy, by the Spirit made strong.
Let the cross be our glory and the Lord be our song
‘til the likeness of Jesus be through us made known.
Let the cross be our glory and the Lord be our song.

Let the cross be our glory and the Lord be our song.